Emotions

My writing, like everyone's I assume, has alwyas been based on my emotions. What I feel, I pour out into whatever I'm writing. I mean, sometiems I delve deeper than I feel and create emotions that I know nothing about. How else would I be able to write about falling in love?

Except, I rarely write about /falling/ in love. I write stories about being in love, but usually about love ending. I've always focused on the more painful emotions, perhaps because you really can't write the joy of being newly in love unless you've experienced it, but I can take a wild guess at what the other side feels like and so I write about that.

I do write about unrequited feelings a lot, having experienced that. My fanfiction comes from all different places, I get inspired by the little thigns. But my orginal work comes from the people around me, it's alwyas been that way. Perhaps that's why I haven't written anything of substance yet.

I have another piece floating around my head. Tenatively I'm calling it "Amelia", that's the name of the main character, but I'm not sure if I'll stick with that. Or if it'll acutally be anything. Write now, it's just a tantalizing idea.

The characters came to me. In the beginning, they were people I knew, but I've already mishapen them beyong recognition, just taking the barest of qualities from real people. The problem is, it's meant to be a love story adn I don't know if I can write that. At least not the kind of love story that this needs to be. So perhaps, it'll be on the back burner for a while.

I'll write what I can now. But I'm not sure I can do it justice yet. Perhaps at 21 I'm not meant to write a great novel yet, I don't know if I have the life experience. But I'll just keep writing, until the stuff I want to write comes out.

This idea really is fascinating. The main character is of course, Amelia, excpet I think it'll be mainly from the perspectives of the other characters. She'll destroy lives and friendships and in the end they stil won't be able to resist her. From the glimpse I have in my head of her, she's not exactly likeable, but she's fascinating.

I don't know if it'll come to anything yet, but it keeps haunting me, so perhaps. We'll just have to wait and see.