Growth

I've been neglecting this blog, I know that. The problem is, I haven't been doing the fanfiction thing as much. I find, the more, my original idea builds in my head, the more I turn from fanfic.

Don't get me wrong, I love fanfiction. Everything I am as a writer, came from fanfiction. My voice, my writing style, it was all born from fanfiction. I gained experience and confidence and an idea of my own abilities and style from writing fanfic.

That said, I think the time is coming for me to move on. I'm not there entirely yet, I certianly want to finish up the projects I've started (or at least some of them). I have other ideas that are still bubbling in my mind, but I'm slowly drifting away from fanfiction.

I find I've been writing more poetry and short stories and then I've had one major idea that's dominating my thoughts and my muse. I've borrowed other peoples characters long enough, it's time to start finding my own, as scary as that is.

I've written fanfiction for eight years now and hte idea of that coming to an end... Well, it's like ending a part of myself. Misha was born from my writing fanfiction, has become a whole seprate person within myself. She's helped me grow, but I hate hte idea that I might have outgrown her.

I guess, that's one of the things that really sucks about growing up, you always have to leave things behind. I grew up as a person a while ago, and left precious, childish things behind. Now, I'm facing the fact that I'm growing as a writer and that might mean leaving other precious things behind...